Passion

I have an incredibly passionate child! It doesn't matter whether he is happy, mad, excited, angry, frustrated, sad, or surprised. He always exuberates that emotion to the fullest! He is generally a happy, excited child, he gets mad or frustrated, but he is very rarely truely sad. I felt bad for him that he felt so sad today on two seperate occasions because he generally will go weeks if not more expressing sadness.

Since we have talked about having a baby in our family, I have told him when school is out then his little "Tink" would be born. I had just gotten in the shower, and he wakes up and comes running in the bathroom. He was sneaky in his asking... So mom, today is the last day of school right. I told him yes, and asked him if he was excited to go. He gets a big smile on his face, I'm so excited, my baby sister is going to come out today, I'm so ready for her to be born. I looked at him, and tryed to gently explain that while I am very excited for her to be born also that she had to be the one to decide when it was time, and I wasn't sure if it was going to happen today. He looks at me with big eyes, that well up in tears and says, You said she was done cooking when school was over.

It made me so sad for him because he is so excited, we finished getting ready this morning, and after enough distractions, I think we're going to make it through!

Because it was the last day of preschool, they invited all of the families to join in some games, and gave the kids the artwork, and pictures they had been working on all year. Sometimes, I'm not sure what Carson is cognisant of. The teacher brought each of the students up one at a time, and gave them their stuff, and then told everyone 3 words that describe each child. She said that three words that described Carson were, joyful, humorous, and strong sense of justice. I thought that was a pretty good description of him, and a unique way of saying he like things done the "right" way. Whatever that means.

After she had described the children, she said whether each child would be doing preschool one more year, or going on to kindergarten. Only Carson, and one other child out of 16 are not old enough to go to kindergarten next year. He didn't say much then, just smiled and brought me his packet of stuff, and then sat down. It was like 3 hours later, he comes up to me sobbing, and says I don't get to go to kindergarten with all my friends, all I want to do is go to kindergarten. It was heartbreaking and adorable all at the same time! So we tried to talk about all the fun things he would get to do in preschool again next year, and tried to avoid talking anymore about kindergarten.

I hope this baby comes soon so he can feel some more excitement in his life!